Name: Lauren From: Motown, Michigan, United States
After many years of denial, I now understand (and accept) that I am a transgender. I only wish I had accepted myself years sooner. View my complete profile
Sunday, March 05, 2006
I Feel Good!!
For the first time in a VERY long time, I really feel good about myself. Somewhere in all the angst in my last few posts, something finally got through. Something finally made me take a long look at myself and come to terms with things that I've allowed to control my life. I now understand: I am not 25 anymore. I cannot bring those days back to "do them over," no matter how much I might want to. I cannot wave my hand and have all the bad shit from my past go away. It's the past, deal with it!! I am not going to wake up tomorrow morning and be magically transformed into the person I want to be. I can only change certain things and even then it might not be exactly the way I'd like it to be. I have value and purpose in life. I am capable and I can make a difference. People care about me, even though I'm a total bitch at times. Everyone has bad days. The world is not picking on me. The only person preventing me from being truly happy is me. I'm human. . . it's time to accept that and start living again.
Posted by Lauren ::
8:38 PM ::
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