Damned if I Know!

Friday, March 03, 2006

How Lucky Can A Girl Get??

UPDATE:

I cannot thank all of you who commented enough. After much thought (self-inflicted ass-kicking is a better term lol!) and a lengthy phone call from another friend, I'm here to let you all know. . .

I'm going to the party. . . I'm saying it here in front of everyone. No backing out, no excuses, no whining. . . I'm going!!! I need this, I want this and it's going to happen!!!

Thanks for all the great comments, encouragement and firm but gentle prodding.

HUGGSS!!

I love you people!!!! I nearly deleted my last post two minutes after I put it up (something I do far too much!!!), but something stopped me. I'm so glad I did. . .
Each of you touched my heart with your kind words.

Some of you will remember when I used to have a picture of "myself" as my avatar. I took it down, because it wasn't a true image of who I am. It was the work of a professional makeup artist. It was 2 hours in the chair for a look that lasted less than 8 hours. Granted, I had a ball while it lasted.

There are really two things that keep me from getting out in the world. My appearance is one, since I attach far too much importance to it. The other is just being very uncomfortable (scared shitless!!) in social situations. That is the new part. I have no idea how it happended. I used to love going out to clubs, parties, whatever and meeting people. I loved being around people period!! Now, just going to work is stressful.

I need to answer Pamela (the person willing to drag me through the door) very soon. Part of me is screaming "JUST DO IT!!!" and another part is reminding me that I'm a coward. I want to listen to the first part. . .

Last. . . Chatty, you dear sweet woman. . . You used a word in your comment that made me sit straight up in my chair. The dream part of it is coincidence, I'm sure, but you used the word "crossroads." That is the name of the group hosting the dinner/dance next weekend. . .

Thank you all. I have a lot to think about in the next day or two. . .

I also need to do my Friday Feast entry. . .

HUGGSS!!

Posted by Lauren :: 8:01 PM :: 9 comments